Thursday, August 6, 2015

Things That Keep Me Up At Night

It's been years since I've been here. In fact the last time I complained about my ex on this blog, I had absolutely no idea the kind of chaos he had been causing. I won't give too many details, because it's not my story to tell, but a little over a year ago, after a year of criminal court dates, and finally, victim impact statements and sentencing, he will have about a dozen years to contemplate his life before he has the opportunity to hurt anyone else. By then, I don't anticipate that he will ever hear from any of our children again. It has been a long and grueling experience, with lots of therapy for me and all of the kids.
In the meantime, I am now a paralegal. I love what I do. I work in family law, so I work on cases of varying intensity, but that for each client is their life changing thing. I have some big dreams I would like to do with my skills, as soon as I find some benefactor who sees my vision, and wants to make my dream a reality.
Sometimes, I can't shut my brain off. It seems the case a lot lately. Tonight it shut off just fine, but decided to roar back to life at 12:45 a.m., paying no mind that I have to get up for work in 6 hours.
I'm not sure what compelled me to come back here after so long, but maybe this place is like therapy too.